This is my second baby. I had to supplement my first pretty early on so i had an open mind to do the same if needed with my March baby.

He latched and ate perfectly from day 1. We’ve been EBF for 4.5 months. I did all the things to keep my supply up and plentiful, tons of water, postnatal vitamins, healthy diet, Mother’s milk tea here & there, fed on demand. I have even avoided strict dieting just to avoid compromising my supply even though I’m carrying an extra 30 lbs. from the pregnancy.

I returned to work at the 12 week mark, and pumped a couple times a day. I noticed 2 weeks ago my supply starting to dwindle during pump sessions. I ordered dairy diva supplements. No change. Here we are and I’m fighting for every last drop. I’m fighting tears. I feel like I’ve come so far and now it’s falling apart. I’m crushed.

I’m not looking for answers just a place to vent and share my story.

I’m working today and I told my husband to be prepared to give our son formula because I wasnt able to leave enough breast milk behind.

Apart of me is so resentful because I know if I didn’t have to go to work I could still successfully EBF him. I think being away from him 40 hours per week has affected my supply.

I know formula is not poison and he will be ok, remember I combo fed my daughter. I just wasn’t expecting to successfully EBF him and we’ve come this far I was looking forward to 1 year.

Anyway thank you for reading.