The floor is lava...

I feel like my world is falling apart, and I cannot stop it.

I am 34 weeks pregnant, and I was supposed to be induced in 3 weeks. My husband ended up having a depressive episode last weekend and committed himself for a psychiatric hold. Due to the magnitude of the end and our 3 year old being at home CPS was involved. My husband is now not able to come back home or see our son without supervision approved by CPS. When I go into labor I better find someone to help with my 3 year old or he will go to a crisis center because my husband cannot be with him. As soon as my baby is born he will be added to the safety plan, so we will need hospital supervision so my husband can see the baby. I am trying to get someone to come help the first few weeks or I will be left alone with a newborn and my 3 year old. I am also not being paid for my maternity leave. I also gotta be my husband's support so he can continue with his treatment. I on the other hand have no friends or family to be my support system because my best friend is my sister-in-law and my husband doesn't want me to talk to her about the stress this is causing me. I am trying to be strong but I keep just feeling sad and alone. I am supposed to be getting ready to have this baby and be happy, but instead I am worried and sad about everything else going on. I have been so anxious I have eaten like crazy and i have not been able to work. I just wanted this to be a happy time, but it is not.