Hello, prior to meeting my boyfriend. I already had a 4 year old daughter, and do to me being in labor for 21 hours straight and having so much pain. I thought to i didn't won't to go through that again, but all my family and friends was like " oh one day your going to fall in love with someone, and won't to have another babe with them" And my answer would always be " oh No!" Anyhow four years later i met my boyfriend and of course just like all my family and friends said that i would fall in love with someone and want to have another child. They where so right!! two years into the relationship i wanted to have another baby with the person i fall madly in love with. Years into the relationship it hadn't happen for us, Into to the year of 2019 which makes our 9th year being together. When i had my daughter 13 years ago, i literally had the prefect pregnancy. I didn't get sick, i still had all my engery and could fit all my regular clothes another then the 21 hours of labor, it was perfect. So at 33 years old, i had always been a good morning person with getting up for work in the morning. But then it got to the point where i had no energy and i wasn't eating alot because i was so nauseated and i could bearly drink water, and everybody who knows me know i drink nothing but water so that was a problem. But me being Nauseated was normal for me. After having my daughter i actually got all the pregnant symtoms afterwards. So i didn't think anything of it, my coworker keep saying that i was pregnant. And i would always be like " Girl No I'm Not" so anyhow after i was feeling how i had been feeling for a month. I also remembered that i had been so overwhelmed with work, that i didn't have a cycle yet. I ended up taking a pregnant test JANUARY 28 2019, And i could have literally passes out when the test said i was pregnant. I was crying tears of joy, Because i thought i couldn't even get pregnant again because it had never happen. I made my first appointment to confirm my pregnancy, it was true and that i was pregnant. My doctor scheduled my appointment for my first ultrosound, and that's when the bad news came in i found out that i was 8 weeks pregnant but my baby had stop growning and that i was gone end up miscarriaging. That was the most hurtful thing for me, because it was like i was blessed with being and getting pregnant after all the years me and my boyfriend had been together. It Finally happen, and then it felt like my whole heart was ripped out. I ended up having my miscarriage March 15th 2019 on my spring break off from work. I was off work seven days and went straight back to work, and i honsetly haven't mentally healed from this are really talk about because i don't think anyone really knows how i feel. This is my first time in 5 months talking about this are sharing my story, so i thought i would share. I get emotional when i see other woman pregnant, I get very emotional when i see woman pregnant, are someone announcing that there pregnant. I'm very happy for them but it just makes me sad because that would have been me as well. I would have been due next month with a boundle of joy. Just asking for prayers so that i will heal mentally form this.