I guess this is more of a question but how do i tell my mom i smoke weed because i dont eat? ive always struggled with how i viewed myself ever since i was 9. i started dieting at 11, avoiding food at 12, and purging at 14. all my friend were teeny weeny little girls and i was a little more "curvy" but not exactly in the places i wanted to be. my mom however, never knew i felt like this.

when i was ending 14 (about 3 months until i was 15) i was smoking a lot of weed... like a lot. but, i gained some weight and didnt really care. i accepted my body for what i had because i was high & too lazy to care. i was just like "eh, whatever man. the sunsets too pretty to worry about my body image" or something like that. yano what i mean? anyway, my mom caught me high at a highschool football game and instantly turned on her super angry mom rage mode.

lost my phone for about 2 weeks & she drug tested me at random. she also forbidded me from seeing most of the friends i had (she isnt a horribly strict or bad mom tho i swear i love that woman to death).

after this happened i stopped smoking for about 9-10 months & the disorders started to take hold again. all though this time i woulnt eat much of anything at all & would still purge at the end of the day. straight stomach acid, that shit was disgusting. anyway, i had lost around 32pounds in barely 3 months.

soon the random drug tests stopped & i found it clear to start smoking again. my mother does not know this. im turning 17 in 2 months and idk how to tell her or even if i should.

ive been doing really good recently & im not saying weed is a 100% cure-all but it definitely does more than going to a support group.

im employed & graduating highschool a year early with plans of going into med-school for anesthesiology.