I was on the depo shot and didn’t think of pregnancy at all when I was constantly nauseous and fatigued, I thought it was side effects of the shot. I woke up last Friday remembering a dream that I was at my family’s Christmas with a belly, I couldn’t shake it and took a home test and it was positive. I went to Planned Parenthood to be sure, it was positive. Based on my last period they believed I was almost 13 weeks. So I told my parents and my father in law. I was scared and unsure if I could connect and love the child as I never wanted one before, then my partner and I got excited. We looked at names and baby shower ideas. My mother (a couponer) started stocking up on diapers and wipes and we begin realizing how much of a blessing this was. A week later I was at work and had a small amount of bleeding, I went in to the hospital where they did another pregnancy test, blood work, and a ultrasound. They couldn’t find a heartbeat. They told me I was RH- and that could’ve been the reason. I got a RhoGam shot to help future pregnancies and I’m grateful for that. But I can’t understand how to handle this. It’s only been two days, but I feel so empty. My fiancé has been amazing and doing everything I could ask. But I feel so empty and heartbroken. We have talked about how everything happens for a reason, timing is everything, and we can always try again. But I can’t help but be angry. I can’t help but feel helpless and numb yet feel everything. I haven’t passed the fetus yet, and waiting for it to happen is the most powerless and hurtful thing I’ve ever experienced. I just want to know how women move on from this, how they cope, how they go on day to day. I never thought I wanted children, but now I’d do absolutely anything to have my baby healthy and alive....