So I’ve been over thinking about my relationship lately idk

So I just don’t want to feel crazy so what do you ladies think he keeps saying I’m the problem, and that I’m going to ruin our relationship?

Anyways me and my bf have been going through a SUPER rough patch the last couple months we told everyone in our families we broke up because of some drama(we agreed to it so we didn’t have to stress about it and their drama anymore) anyways since he’s became more vocal and things have just been getting to me for so much

For instance his best friend doesn’t know that he still talks to me he hides everything from all of his boys he tells them that he doesn’t talk to anyone so-called so they “don’t ruin our relationship”

Also in April we had a huge argument and even though we were still together we took a break from seeing each other in person which was fine but then we hung out about a week after, during us hanging out he had opened on his Snapchat were both over 20 and I seen he was snapping some girl and he had a 7 day snap streak which we never talk to anyone at the opposite gender just because he never let me he was like super against it because of his religion or whatever the situation maybe we both just dropped everyone he didn’t have any girlfriends my guy friends I just kind of stop talking to because I don’t want him feeling some kind away and the guys that I was friends with lived a hour away anyways.

Then we get into altercations and he’ll make me send him screenshots of my Instagram & Snapchat to see who’s on there when I ask him to send me in return and he won’t and he will tell me that he doesn’t have to I should believe what he says

it’s even gotten to the point where I had to delete all males off my Snapchat Even family members that I don’t see because apparently “people date cousins to” but then he tells me he did it also and he’s shown me no proof of anything literally if you check my Instagram likes, my Snapchat you won’t see anything of any guys anywhere and it’s like I have to show and prove to him and he’s never showed me anything he always told me if I really wanted to I could check his phone because there’s no password on it but the one time I did grab his phone he smacked it out of my hand and we got into a huge argument and then I ended up walking 40 minutes to go home

And like even now he’s out with his boys and he won’t text me when he’s with them they’re not downtown, but when he’s with me his phone is always in his hands and he’ll text them back or whatever it maybe but I can never get a text or answer when he’s with them and he says it’s because he’s busy and he doesn’t check his phone but it’s after 1 AM I don’t get it. Like why have a girlfriend if you treat her like this I feel like I’m not respected at all and I’m just used

so like am I overreacting? What do you ladies think? I feel like I’m going though so much I love him more than anything but slowly it’s just getting worse😕

We just got into a huge fight once again and I feel like I’m just so done, I’m gonna kill myself trying to keep him happy and I can’t do this anymore I blocked him off everything but how am I supposed to avoid him? We both go to the same gym :/

Not saying that I’ve never yelled or been the reason for a argument because I have a relationship takes two but today was enough.