My fiancée and I have been together almost 3 years now and we are expecting our first (it wasn’t planned). I’m only 18 and very stressed about the whole thing, I have no job, no income and I live with my parents; I can’t even drive a car.

Worst part is I have no friends, no one expect my him or my mum to talk to and neither I can chat with about my stress with my fiancée. He continuously chats about leaving his job and starting different things, even though his income is all we have for our future family! Not just that but I caught him smoking cigars, may not sound like a big deal but it really means a lot to me as my uncle died at 50 because he smoked. He’s not even that interestedly our baby, he’s happy that I’m pregnant but doesn’t really want to do anything else leaving me to try to drag him to places as I can’t go along.

I constantly feel like I’m drowning and alone, he was my best friend but I feel like I can’t talk to him. I’m sad and scared almost all the time. In some ways I wish I could go back and take the pills and remove it but I was just way too afraid to do it then.