Very Confused

Lai

My husband and myself have been trying 4 years and we've got nothing in return 🤦🏽‍♀️ but for some reason this go around I'm feeling very different, I've been having many different things happen as such as pressure cramps in my lower abdomen for like a week and a half they come and go and nothing like AF cramps and like this very painful cramp in my lower back but it only was here on the 11th for a couple hours...Then also very very light spotting on the 10th/11th ugh not getting my hopes up because I'm tired of being let down and I do not symptom watch even if I start to I make myself busy and change my thoughts but I really wana know !!