I’ve been with my kids father for years. I honestly always thought that he didn’t really have a interest in me from the begging and I knew then I should have just let him be with entertaining women on the internet. For some reason I felt that he was sincerely sorry 😒 he said he has never had sex with these women but I seen the sex talk, the picking up women, to sending dick pictures. When I seen that my self esteem dropped tremendously and I actually had a suicide attempt. After the attempt he was sad and crying and said he was sorry blah blah blah but now I feel like we are back where we were. He never tells me he loves me unless I do. He never gives me a kiss or hug when he goes to work or come home, he doesn’t ask me how my day was or what I did today, and when he gets home he showers and go in the living room as if he doesn’t want to lay with me (he works second shift) If I don’t text him we will go the whole day without talking. It’s heart breaking my heart hurts but I don’t know what to do but cry. My depression medicine is not helping. I don’t work because I’m in school full time and he takes care of the bills and if I leave him I’m afraid everything is going to fall apart and the future I want for my kids will not happen. I think I just need to talk to God more......