ok ok , soo my “boyfriends” birthday is (in my time ) basically an hour or so away . August 13th . and about two days ago he checked in ig asking if I knew that his birthday was coming up . of course I was like ‘duhhh how could I forget’. but at that point we hadn’t been talking the way we used to be . because recently (a week or so ago) we got in a pretty big fight and I hate to bring it back up but a lot of hurtful shit was said (mainly directed to me). he texted me this confirmation pretty late too, it was about 9 or 11pm and ever since then we still haven’t been talking.

and by not talking I mean 0-4 texts a day ! i know I shouldn’t be thinking negatively and stuff cuz maybe he’s busy with important stuff like birthday planning ... idk ! I’m just kinda annoyed , pissed, unsure , anxious, and worried all at the same time cuz idek what to think . I mean he’s turning 19 maybe he’s with a girl enjoying himself and I’m the one looking dumb

KEEP IN MIND WE’RE IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP .. of course I’m gonna say happy birthday BY TEXT and try my best to make him feel special but damn do I need advice on what or how to feel ...

I also don’t wanna be selfish cuz I mean HELLOO it’s his freaking birthday so what should I do ?? ..? ......? .....!