I am so conflicted about this pregnancy. I am 26 weeks with my third baby. I have GD and my last pregnancy I had sever preeclampsia. I had to be induced at 32 weeks.

One doctor told me I could be induced at 37 weeks because of the GD. I was excited at first. Made me feel a little safer that maybe I won’t get preeclampsia in time and can be healthy.

My mom is also coming from out of state to watch my two children while I give birth. So it would be planned perfectly (if I didn’t go into labor early.)

But now ... being induced comes with its own ... issues. Like how much longer it can take than natural birth. How much more painful it can be because it’s being forced on the body ...

I’m starting to have second thoughts and really want to go natural but then I run the risk of having to have my kids with me the whole time and I’m worried they will stress me out and I may scare them (8 year old girl and 4 year old boy)

I want to be able to call my husband and scare the crap out of him that I’m in labor lol

I want the experience of being st home for as long as I feel comfortable and not have drs poking and prodding me. Not to menchen I have anxiety up the hoo ha and it would help me relax.

There is good and bad either way but the thing that is really freaking me out is the preeclampsia. I do not want to get that again ... it was with a different father so I don’t know if that makes a difference but eh. I cannot remember my sons birth at all.. I just remember being miserable ... my daughter ... I remember it so clear and felt so much more connected ...

So yeah ... that’s my rant. Lol