I know, ultimately, yes.

I’ve been a high school choir director since graduating. I’ve decided to stay home with baby and am not going back to work right now like everyone else. It’s really hard. All of my friends are teachers...so they aren’t around anymore. Being a SAHM is NOT easy. It’s exhausting, isolating, and monotonous. I know it’ll get easier when she gets older, but right now, it’s pretty miserable. I love my baby more than anything and I’m so grateful to have this option (I know many/most don’t even have a choice to stay home), but I’ve cried a lot lately about not going back to work. I think some of it is really hard because it’s all so new...I’m not the same person anymore. My poor husband is trying so hard to keep me involved (he’s a hs choir director too) and to help me get out of the house and have some “me-time” when he gets home.

Eventually I’ll look back and be so glad I got to be here with her...but it’s really hard right now. I miss regular adult interaction other than my husband.

No one has it easy when maternity leave is over,..going back to work is hard..staying home is hard. I just didn’t expect it to be this hard.

Me and my wiggle bean today at lunch.