Scared!

Little back story: January of this year after a long time trying to get pregnant it finally happens. Me and the hubby was over the moon only to how our hearts broken. We lost the baby somewhere between w7 and w10. Now I am two weeks late, praying that we have a second chance but still haven’t taken a test cos I don’t feel pregnant. Part of me is scared to get our hopes up again and an other part of me is scared that it might me menapause ( turning 42 at the end of the year) not really sure how to handle this, feel like crying almost all the time.