i don’t know what group i’m supposed to post this in so i just chose one.

my boyfriend of a year & a half is moving 3 hours away for college. tomorrow is his last day in town & he moves away on thursday. i know 3 hours isn’t that long & he said he’s going to visit me every 2 or 3 weeks so to an outsider im sure that doesn’t seem that bad & im lucky he isn’t moving further, which i am. my problem is that i’m severely depressed & he’s the only thing that makes me feel better & i don’t know what i’m gonna do when he leaves. i can call him & text him but actually being in his arms is the only thing that makes me happy when i’m depressed. he’s the only reason i haven’t killed myself, because when i feel like hurting myself i think about our future together & how bad i want to live to see it & it keeps me together. but i’m just so fucking sad about him leaving & the fact that i’m going to have to miss him basically all the time for a long time absolutely crushes me. i can’t stop sobbing every time i think about it or talk about it. i don’t know how to make myself feel better & i don’t know what to do when i get depressed & he isn’t here to hold me. im 17 & i have to finish my senior year of high school & then i’m going to college too so i just keep thinking about how it’s gonna be like 5 years of us barely seeing each other & me missing him constantly & i just don’t know how to handle it. i’m so fucking sad.