I miss the man that used to hit me in my mouth. I miss the man that hit me in my face. I miss the man that wouldn’t let me leave and if I tried would hit me. I miss the man that threatened my life. I miss the man that constantly cheated on me. Three years 1 abortion, 2 miscarriages. I’m only 23 and I’ve already felt like I’ve lost my world. I feel lost without him there is no me and I’m so empty without him. I’m in love with him I love him and I want to go back so bad I want to beg and ask for forgiveness for leaving and getting away from his abuse. I know he still loves me. I want to know why I’m like this and why he has this power over me. He said he was sorry.