I'm 35 years old , my best friend and I have been friends since Elementary school !!

We both are teachers . My best friend is a Math Teacher and myself I teach history... (Different schools)

She has been seeing a guy we will Call Mason for 7 years throughout their relationship , I have had no boyfriends (only little flings here & there).

We also live in the same commuinty...

Two years ago Mason & I began hooking up (secretly) of course .

-I hate this -

-He hate this -

But we truly love each other

We love the time we spend together even if most times its the three of us & SEX isn't involved.. When we all hang together

When im over at their house he will offer to walk me home to just to make sure I'm safe .During these walks we talk about everything.. (We stay 1 block apart in a housing division)

Last night he told me that he loves me and is ready to leave her ...

He want us to get married!! I want us to get married !! but we dont know how to tell her ....

We are truly soul mates and it was love at first sight for both of us

I want my friend to be happy!!! & throughout her relationship with him all she do is complain . the things she complain about I love...

This weekend we plan on telling her ...

We plan on being open and honest

Because that's what true love is about

We are going to tell her everything

How it started how it blossomed and ultimately how we FEEL..

I know this could be considered wrong

I know that she will hurt but my questions is

WOULDN'T YOU WANT TO KNOW ???

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I realized before I posted this the type of reaction I would received. I know this isn't right so your judgment only goes with what I already know.

here's the back story

On Friday we all met up at a local PUB.

We laughed and talked about the up coming school year. We planned on telling her but we just couldn't bring ourself to do it at that moment.

I watched as they danced to a song while he stole every glance at me that he could .

Everything would be alright I continued to reassure myself ... I ordered us all another round &(I also noted that Martha wasn't drinking ) they laughed while coming back to the table honestly I felt something was off and a little tense but ignored this...

ONCE THEY SAT DOWN .... Martha announced she's pregnant (She said she was going to tell me on Saturday at Brunch)but she is excited and she couldn't wait any longer !!!! Congratulations I said but i felt soo sick.

She then looks directly at me and says Rachell you know i love you but we found a great house offer

were moving(and they've been planning to move for 3 MONTHS) . & WHAT THE HELL

Mason began while looking at me . He goes "Martha (yes tell her I thought to my self) Rachel & I have been having an affair. But you know this because I told you last night...

I'm so upset in a instant second . How could he tell her without me being there ??

He goes on to say that he never meant any of it and that he Loves her & truly wants to be with her ..he wants their kid it's and their future kids . This last week opened his eyes he stated after we discussed him leaving he realized he loved her and most importantly he loves her heart...

Who says that after making love to me for 2 years I said while jumping up to grab my things. (I felt shame that he could choose her while looking me in my face)

now he wants to be honest with her to try to savage whatever was salvageabl so he told her the night before...

Now I'm the backstabber..

She gave no clue that she knew for a whole 24 hours while still texting and calling like everything was normal . I just don't understand. . .

They knew she was pregnantfor a whole month , he said nothing to me neither did she..

And this piece of shit just stares at me .

Im so hurt.. broken.. Confused..

I feel isolated ...

Martha is not accepting my calls but his car is still in the driveway of her house

This only a brief summary..

Excuse the grammar this is a quick update