Trying to lose “happy” weight

So, I know I’m not “fat” but 2 years ago I was 105 and I loved it. Although, i wasn’t really happy in my life. 2 months after this picture I met my husband. He is the light in my life, and he’s made me so happy.

BUT in a year and a half, we’ve both gained about 30 pounds. I never thought I’d ever get this big, and I’ve had really bad self esteem these past few months. I don’t fit into my clothes and I hate looking in the mirror.

We both started working out and after a week I went from 135.8 to 134.8 and lost about 2 cm off my belly and I’m so excited!!! I don’t wanna be 105 again but maybe like 120? 115? 😞

P.s....it was really hard to post this second picture. Trying not to cry here 😢