This is my first month TTC (trying to get the new lingo down!) I have waited my whole adult life to be a mother. I was engaged to my high school sweetheart and he passed away 12 years ago. I never thought I would love again and up until earlier this year I had plans with my gyno to start a family on my own by the time I turned 35.

Well I’m with a man I love very very much and we both want to have a baby together. He has 2 other children. I’m honestly just so nervous and scared that I’m not going to be able to get pregnant, because I’ve never tried. I’ve been on the pill since I was 17 and now I’m 34. I don’t have any known health issues, but it’s weighing so heavily on my mind that it will not happen for me now that I have this chance to make a life with the love of my life. I feel like I got a second chance at life being able to love again and I’m so scared I waited too long to be able to conceive.

We’ve only been trying for less than a month. And I know it can take some time. I just needed to vent and I don’t think anyone in my life would quite understand.

Wishing babydust to everyone and hope some of it lands on me in the near future 👨‍👩‍👧