I got married to this wonderful guy after being in a relationship for 7 years. We were very happy and in love. Every now and then we would have our small fights and arguments but it was all good. His sister (who lives with us) was too much of a problem in everything. She would openly bad mouth both of us and still I could not do anything to get rid of her.

I am ANA positive and we had trouble conceiving. Last august we got pregnant with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> and it was good until I miscarried at 8 weeks. Then we tried <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> in march and that failed too.

In May this year, my husband lost his father to renal failure and there wasn’t much that we could do for him. He held himself responsible for losing his father. I was supportive throughout his fathers previous medical conditions and this time around too. And I assure everyone that my husband did his best.

During this time, his best friend who has having problems with her own marriage was in town (with her two adorable kids). My husband used to spend a lot of time with her. Things worked out for her and now she is back with her husband.

Meanwhile I am 10 weeks pregnant with the help of FET. Last week I saw some texts on his phone with his bestfriend. They were flirtacious and in one of the texts she had also mentioned that she feels guilty that they are wrong. When I confronted both of them they said that it was innocent flirting and she just felt guilty that my husband spent more time with her and not with me when I was going through second round of implantation.

I know for sure that she is back with her husband now. But since that episode my husband has been on a roller coaster ride in case of his mood. Some days he would be adorable and would love me and some days he would not even look at me.

Tonight he came home all pissed and when I asked him his reason was that I am too clingy.

I would need love at this moment the most and he doesnt understand that. I was crying right next to him and he slept. I was begging for a hug and he didnt give me one.

I am 10 weeks pregnant with twins and we have prayed for this for really long.

I dont know what should I do? He doesnt talk to me about what is going on in his head. After he had fallen asleep i went near him abd put my arm around him and he removed that too.

I just crave for love and nothing more.