Sorry to post a ranty vent here, but I am feeling incredibly angry and frustrated because I'm not being listened to. AGAIN!!

First off, a bit of backstory: I know that I am luckier than many - I have a 15 yr old son and a wonderful 20 month old daughter. They are my world and I love and appreciate them so much. <3 However, with the age gap between the two, my partner and I wanted a younger sibling for our daughter to grow up with.

Now, my past history is a tad complicated:

- A "normal" miscarriage in July 2003,

- then a normal pregnancy in 2004 with my son,

- then bleeding non stop for 10 months thanks to the contraceptive implant

- then years of not getting pregnant despite using no contraception

Then when we seriously started trying we had:

- one missed miscarriage in July 2014,

- one suspected miscarriage that I never got the test results back from in October 2014,

- 2 chemical miscarriages in January and March 2015,

- then a "late missed" miscarriage at 19-21 weeks in October 2015 (My second son, and I dispute the term "miscarriage" in that case),

- then we finally got our daughter in December 2017

Currently I am going through another suspected miscarriage at 5.5 weeks, and can I get a medical professional to take me seriously? Can I heck!!!!!

All the documentation says "if you have this call your doctor", "if you have that, call your doctor", etc etc. But what is the bloody point????

In 2014 I was told "you're fine, if you were miscarrying you'd know it". Well I was, and I did, but they didn't listen. I was made to wait 4 more weeks before they finally listened and did an US at 11 weeks to find baby had died weeks ago.

With my "late" miscarriage I called to tell them I couldn't feel him move or hear his heart beat on a home Doppler, and it was "you're fine, you're just not trained to use one". They made me wait **9 extra days** for my 20 week scan where they found he had died in the week that I had initially called them.

Currently they're making me wait two more weeks before they take me in to check what's going on, telling me "useful" advice such as "be positive" and "if you're worried about infection then just don't have sex". And I just want to SCREAM at them because they have my medical history right there in front of them and they're ignoring it!! Then when I get emotional and start crying I'm told "be kind to yourself, don't get angry at your body".

It's not my body I'm angry at!!!!!!!