I know I’m not the only one that’s went through this and I’m trying not to complain.

My SO and I have been trying for almost 7 months and I know that’s not long for some people but we’ve been together a couple of years (that might be irrelevant to some but isn’t to me). My sister met this guy we introduced her to, and they’ve known each other for maybe 2 months, and she might be pregnant. It wouldn’t bother me as much as I got off of birth control in January and she knew we were going to start trying and when she seen it didn’t happen right away, she made side jokes and was like do you want me to have a baby for you etc. So I told her to back off basically that it can take time, and I also just stopped talking about it completely. The thing is with our family they are really judgy, so if she got pregnant, I don’t want to put my ttc on hold, but if I got pregnant after her, they would talk about me and say I copied her which that’s because that’s how they are! I don’t really bother or talk to my family, they say I think I’m better than everyone. I hate to complain or be jealous but I feel as now she makes it a competition and it shouldn’t be. It should be a time for me and my SO to take in without all the vibes around us.

I’m going to be happy for her but it’s going to hurt like hell.