HELP! Lifeless hair ...

Hey girls !

So I’m on a journey of growing out my hair and I just hate the way it looks in every single way.

I don’t use heat.

It looks so horrible and unhealthy... I put coconut oil masks, hydration’s masks, I oil my ends with different kinds of oils... should I just trim it ? Does it look unhealthy ?

Also How do I remove my stupid balayage that I regret doing..??

Thanks !!!