Can’t wait!!

Is it bad that I anticipate marriage and children with my SO. It’s going on 2 years and I just feel so anxious. I want to marry him tonight and have sex until I’m throwing up the next morning with a positive digital blue! 😭 Every time we have a scare I find myself hoping and praying and I feel so terrible because we have a 5 year plan but it feels so far away. Yet I would never do anything intentionally to ruin our relationship. I just wish things would hurry up. 😭🤦🏽‍♀️😒