Okay so don’t get me wrong, I have an amazing man by my side and he supports me in every way . I’m extremely happy to have our babygirl on the way in less than 6 weeks, but I’m so stressed out !!!

I’ve literally done nothing but stress this entire pregnancy. My parents and siblings have been living in a hotel after getting scammed by a “real estate agent” , and they’re always asking me for money to help out, which I don’t mind . But I have literally NOTHING for my babygirl . Literally nothing y’all . I have cried and stressed to hell about my parents situation but I just can’t take it anymore. I have maybe 6 outfits but that’s it . My SO doesn’t wanna buy any diapers or anything else until the baby shower which my friend and mom are wanting to plan sooo bad, but here I am and we don’t even have a fucking date for it yet! I’ve explained that I can help them with expenses and all, but they tell me that the mother to be isn’t suppose to worry about planning it . It got to a point to where they were taking forever to plan it that I tried to even help them, but with them turning down my help and barely getting anywhere with it, I don’t even want a damn baby shower anymore .

Every time I try to tell them to just not worry about a baby shower, they push and insist but they’re not getting anywhere with it . They don’t even communicate at all unless I try to push them to talk . So every time they tell me not to worry about it, im having to wait longer and longer to buy stuff for my daughter . It’s getting to where I’m gonna say fuck what anyone says, I’m gonna go buy everything I’ll need and leave it at that . I have a shitload of money , so why not 🤷🏽‍♀️. I’m tired of being strung along on this baby shower shit . I’m tired of seeing everyone else having their baby shower and then there’s me. I’m happy for everyone, but thinking about a baby shower makes me sad . We don’t even have a nursery set up . We’re focusing on buying a house right now and I can’t even focus because of everything that’s going on .

To add to my stress, my fucking job gave me a pay cut . (Yay!) and are possibly sending me to another facility if I don’t find another position within the building I’m currently working at . It’s going to fuck everything up . My SO and I used to work the same shift, same days, and same hours at the same place so it was super convenient for us. But an employee took medical leave and I went from working swing shift on night shift with my SO, to working 3pm-11pm 6 days a week now. My sleeping schedule is fucked up and I’m working more than ever now. I’m having to stress about rather I’m going to get transferred or not, and taking a pay cut . On top of that, I’ve been trying to change my W-4s , but currently can’t because the online portal isn’t working .

And when I go to HR they’re no help. If it doesn’t get fixed I’ll end up paying out the ass in taxes next year, and I have a baby on the way, so I HAVE to get the shit fixed. It’s one thing after another y’all, and I swear I’m gonna lose it . I feel like I’m failing already . There’s so much going on and it’s driving me up the wall . I’m taking it out on my poor SO , and I hate it 😣. We are going to make sure our baby is well taken care of, but right now I’m always stressed . I fucking hate it .