In my entire life, I never thought I’d have a child. Not at all. And even if I did, my family has SO many girls I was sure I’d have a girl! Then I became pregnant, and at 9 weeks I felt certain I was having a little boy. And he was in fact a boy! I even made a bet with my mom 😂 I was with my baby’s father for a year and I started to become distant from him physically. I just didn’t want to be touched or anything! I thought for sure once my pregnancy was done I’d go back to being how I was. Well a week before my boy was born his dad and I broke up. He was just feeling toxic to me and unhealthy and possessive. He is an amazing father but not a boyfriend.

So anyway, after my baby was born via emergency c-section. The instant I heard his cry, my heart was in my throat. The moment I was able to hold him I felt so much love for my little one. I cried. He was a week old when my family took me out to breakfast and I was holding him and just staring at him sleeping. My sister was talking to me and I didn’t hear a word because I was so in awe of my son. So beautiful and perfect. I take care of him on my own and I work so my mom watches him when I do. I never get a “break” from him and I don’t even ever mind. The moment I get home from an exhausting job on my feet, I take him from my mom and just cuddle him. Seeing him smile at me and trying to laugh and cooing at me.

I know in my heart that I was born to be his mommy. That he is my purpose for life. I want the world and more for him. I can’t help but stare at him and know he is my true love. 💓 I would do anything to keep my tiny human happy 💞