Vagina is really wide, 5 weeks postpartum 🥺

So I made the mistake of looking at 2 weeks to check on my stitches and was mortified how wide and like a gaping hole it looked. So fast forward to 5 weeks postpartum I looked again hoping for a little improvement and ITS THE SAME!

I know I am having too high of expectations of my vag that just pushed out a baby, but it’s really making me upset and extremely insecure😭 I wanted to have sex with my husband after I got cleared but it’s just too open and it scares me to even think about putting anything near it or in it. Omg ☹️.

Words of encouragement ladies? Or will it not close for months ? What can I do to close it ?😭🥺