I’ve been struggling with some anxiety and depression lately. Last night I had the worst nightmare. In my dream my baby (just turned 1 month) had stoped breathing while in his car seat. We had just arrived at home and we called emergency service. When the EMT get there, they start to do CPR. I took older kids in the house so they didn’t have to see that. When I got back EMT was pronouncing time of d.....

I really can’t.

I woke up in a panic crying and grabbing my sleeping baby. It was 3am. He was fine but I was just a mess. Shaking and crying. My husband held me until I calmed down. I laid down in bed with my baby. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I finally was ok to put him back I his bassinet at 5:30am and sleep a couple of hours.

I can’t shake the feeling off. I’m just more anxious now that yesterday.