2nd FET and feeling discouraged

Kenna

So I’m 8dp5dt for my second round of <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. My first round was successful and I feel very lucky to have my little boy. I took a hpt this morning and it was negative. With my son I got a bfp at 5dp5dt so I’m pretty much in the mindset that this didn’t work. My beta is tomorrow so I’ll get the definitive then. I know I’m lucky that I’ve had success before but I’m feeling very defeated and sad because I guess I just felt that it would work since it did last time. And I just feel guilty that I feel this discouraged because at least I have my son. Just feeling all the feels right now. And ultimately just wondering if there is any hope for a positive test at this point