Hopeful optimistic idiot


I am 2 days past my second <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. The doctor said, this is not under the best circumstances. I had 1 follicle 20mm on my left side. We had to wait my my uterus lining to thicken.

Also, my husbands morphology (shape of his sperm) comes back lower than he hopes. Last time was 3 million after wash. They want at least 5 million after wash.

I made the mistake of asking my doctor, do you see me getting pregnant, am I going to have a baby. He looked at me, and i know he knew what I wanted to hear, and he couldn’t tell me so as I looked at his face as he was searching for the best answer I broke down. I got this knot in my throat/chest... i regret asking that question.

His answer was, I told you <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> would increase your chances.

I work for a catholic institution and they do not cover any fertility treatments with out insurance. I am currently looking for a job at a non- catholic university so I can have some coverage.

Today, in sitting here, with my wishlist of things I want to buy the baby. Every cycle is the same thing! In my head, I pretend I am pregnant. I eat like I’m pregnant and i want to be pregnant so bad that my nipples this cycle are like swollen/enlarged.

I want to sleep the next 2 weeks and just wake up on test date!