Porn in relationship

Ok so I had an ex that basically chose porn over me, I’ve always very against it in a relationship because of that. It made me feel like I wasn’t good enough.

Well I have NO IDEA why the sudden change of heart, but I kind of want to try watching it with my husband. I’m nervous though, I’m nothing to brag about physically, so I don’t want him to get off purely to the women on screen. If that makes sense?

I know a lot of you ladies watch with your men, I’m just wondering how do you get past the jealousy? Please don’t be hateful.