Just wanted to share

Growing up I had some mental health issues that I dealt with on a daily basis. My parents opted for getting me medicated and had me go to a therapist at 11 years old. Since then I've been on several different doses of medications and I've seen five different therapists. The medication did not help me whatsoever. I felt like a walking zombie everywhere I went. I was in a constant fog, unable to feel anything at all. At one point I would have rather felt depressed again, not sick and numb like I did on medication.

Every therapist I've ever had didn't help me in the slightest. Each one had a different method and I was completely open and honest with every one of them, and we talked for hours, but they never made me discover anything new about myself and they never helped me cope with my emotions better. They all just let me talk about how I felt and offered little insight. I didn't understand how therapy was supposed to help me if all I was doing was talking about my issues. Every session ended with the thought of "what am I supposed to do now?" It never made me feel any better.

When I turned eighteen, I took myself off of my medication and I stopped going to therapy. My parents didn't support it and I understand why. Everyone says how great therapy and psych meds are supposed to be, after all. In the end, I taught myself how to love myself and how to deal with my emotions on my own. I read many books about self love. I read articles about my diagnoses to better understand why I did the things I did and why I felt certain things. I ate healthier, I exercized even when I didn't want to, I pushed myself to socialize, I slowly taught myself how to deal with things in the ways that work for me.

I'm twenty three now. I have an eight month old son that I would do anything for, a husband I love more than anything, and I have never felt happier. I never feel depressed anymore. I guess my reason for posting this is because not everyone can be helped the same way. Therapy and medication doesn't work for everyone. Yes if it works for you by all means there's nothing wrong with that, that's great. I just want people to know that if it doesn't work for you, that's ok! We are capable of helping ourselves and just because therapy and medication don't work it doesn't mean we are irreparably damaged! There is nothing wrong with us. We can make ourselves feel better.