Turmoil, Please help me

I am 47 years old and I have been married to my husband for 26 years. We met as children I was 10 years old when our family moved to the block. A little background as a child the age of 3, I was molested by my Aunts boyfriend, therefore I did not trust males. I had a very difficult time setting boundaries and became promiscuous as a young girl. No actual intercourse, but wanting to be loved.Eventually I met my husband who we were very tight I thought, but he became interested in another girl and as a teenager I was devastated and tried to commit sluiced. He came back but I was changed. I didn’t value myself. So I cheated after that I just didn’t value myself anymore. Fast forward, we got married and 20 years later I came clean about an episode Because he kept asking me. Now it is years later and since we have been married I have never cheated that’s 26 years, but he tells me because of the seeds I planted prior to marriage and not telling him until later he has a problem with trusting me. We argue all the time there are other things that I have accepted from him as well, alcoholism and a sprinkle of verbal abuse on both parts over the years. I tell him if it bothers him so much leave me and he states if I know he can’t get over it I should leave him, this is the dilemma both of us are facing. He is upset that male coworkers that he don’t know are sending me friend request, mind you he throws the past in my face regularly, so I don’t do anything to upset the balance. I clear my Facebook of all the people he said make him uncomfortable. I’m drained. Any suggestions is he right and should I just except this is my fault?