Okay so I’m 18, I’ve never had any sexual encounters until now and it went so bad. Btw I just started taking birth control today! But a week ago I went over a boys house and we didn’t even have a conversation about anything he just went in and started trying to have sex with me we tried to have sex for a good two hours but couldn’t bc it hurt so bad! I was nervous and I didn’t get wet so I think that’s why it hurt more than I think it should. I can tell he was frustrated with me but after I we texted in the morning about nothing about 3 days later he’s acting like I’m the one ignoring him we exchanged lil to no words. A couple of days ago I told him how I felt but not truly how I felt and he basically said I was over reacting. Now we haven’t spoken to each other in 4 days! I just feel used. He really just made me seem like we were going to be something when he was only wanting one thing from the start. I’ve been taking to on and off for years. I feel like I should’ve just waited to even attempt to give myself to someone. He kinda makes me feel like I did something wrong when I know I didn’t. Maybe he just wasn’t feeling me after that or he was turned off idk. I just wanna let him know how I truly feel or should I just keep the communication nonexistent? Now I literally don’t want another boy to touch me in that way I don’t even wanna have sex (I do but not just with anyone) and i don’t wanna force a relationship