So, I grew up with my mom and was estranged from my fathers side. A big part of their separation was the son my dad had w/ another woman. He’s 2 weeks younger than me 🙃

Im pretty used to men in my life disappointing me but my half brother seemed to be different. We lived very far away from eachother but would keep in contact here and there via social media. When I went to college he was a marine stationed in the same state. On thanksgiving he wants to get together! So he drives like 9 hours from SD to SF to see me and I felt really special. We slept in the same room, ate together, caught up, and talked a lot about relationships for some reason.

Anyway after that, we part ways and keep in touch. I’m thinking we’re gonna be best friends, but one night he got really really drunk and was texting me asking weird stuff about my sex life. Then he asks me what if WE did it. I freaked out on him and felt really horrible afterward. I had to talk to someone, so I told my older sister. She supported me and cursed him out via text and all that....she made us promise that this would stay between the three of us siblings.

but even though no physical abuse happened I still can’t feel the way I felt about him when we first met, or when we reunited on thanksgiving. I kinda miss how we used to be but I feel gross every time his name is brought up. I haven’t spoken to him in like 5 years and now he’s desperately trying to get me to his wedding this fall. I feel like I’m being dramatic since he never touched me, but I can’t bring myself to forgive him.