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DISCLAIMER: Things will be all over the place n jumbled together.i have a lot of thoughts going on in my head with to much info to communicate through txt so please pardon all the grammatical errors

So I’ve been in a emotionally/psychological and verbal abusive relationship for the past two yrs.we have been together going on 5yrs and since our daughter has been born it has gotten out of hand.neither one of us has respect for each other and it’s starting to become physical abuse.i feel so trapped and stuck.I HAVE NO SUPPORT SYSTEM.my mother is 70yrs old and disabled and she cannot watch my daughter.my sisters both wrk and I only talk to one.and I have a niece who is always home but she does at home dialysis and will be unable to get up for at least four hours.i need to escape but I don’t know how.i don’t want to do about work.we live in public housing with my mom and they documents how much I make to raise the rent.and I don’t think I will be able to financially afford us and childcare and rent aswell as food n other essentials.yesss I can take him to child support but I’m trying not to go down that route.i don’t want to get the courts involved because once their involved it’s hard to get them uninvolved.i don’t want to be forced to have any type of custody agreement.i seen those play out in court with my sisters and the systems make things all the way worse.i honestly think I’m scared that he would just throw our child on his family to watch n take care of because he can be a lazy bastard.and let me not get started on how they lack common sense when taking care of a child 🙄 my mil would babysit and wouldn’t feed my daughter breakfast until 2 in the afternoon and allows her to stay up until 1/2am for bed mind you my daughter would be crying of exhaustion 🤦🏽‍♀️ I just don’t trust him/them with her and I’m afraid that a judge would rule that she would have to be with them/him for days.i don’t mind her seeing her grandmother n father but I would like for her to be back with me for nighttime idk.

I need advice from moms who have been in the court system and the shelter system

I’ve also been thinking about just going to the shelter so there for I won’t have worry about rent so I can stack enough money so that we can move out of my mothers house