Hi ladies, please strap on in and enjoy the texts below but let me explain a little first.

I am currently 16+4 pregnant and I ended my relationship with my baby’s father when I was 5 weeks due to being unhappy in the relationship (in other words, it was not because of the baby).

He has been fighting and arguing with me with every single thing and I have just copped it on the chin.

I have invited him to every single appointment I have had, I have updated him every time I have been physically sick and when I have been to the hospital unexpectedly. I have been twice because of severe pain due to stress. My doctor has told me I need to reduce stress as much as I possibly can and I have explained this to my ex who has continued to send me manipulative messages which contribute to my stress.

I have mental health issues and I am at high risk of having post-natal depression so my GP has been watching my mental health closely and has been providing me with extra support. She has explained to my family that I also need extra support at home and this has also been explained to my ex.

I hate conflict and drama, so every time he has sent me a message saying I believe everything is the mother’s choice, that I am not letting him be a father, that I am pushing him away, that I won’t let him see the baby, etc etc, I have let it go and haven’t really stood up for myself because I don’t want to make things worse despite him running his mouth about me.

He has never turned up to a single appointment, he has never asked me how the appointments go (I just update him and tell him anyway), he hasn’t bought a single item for the baby, he is not planning on taking any time off after the baby is born despite having annual leave because he won’t earn his over time hours (he would still earn $700+ a week with his leave alone mind you). The only decision he has made for this child is that he wants them to have his last name. I have made a previous post about this and have since decided I would like the baby to have my last name because I have a strong feeling I will be this child’s sole parent and I don’t even know how involved he will be after the baby is born.

Well tonight, I fucking snapped. I am sick and tired of being manipulated and made to feel guilty because of his actions and decisions.

This is the message he sent me after not replying for 24 hours, completely out of nowhere.

Perhaps I shouldn’t have replied at all and just blocked him, however he has posted numerous things online, said disgusting things to and about me and I have stood back and not said anything and still been very accommodating to him and I just lost it. I finally stood up for myself, which I am very proud of. So perhaps I shouldn’t have replied, but I couldn’t stand by and let him twist my words and paint me to be a horrible person anymore.

a few things I should explain within the texts:

a) everything he accused me of saying I swear to you I have never said. and he has never been able to prove this to me when I have asked him for the messages in which I have said them.

b) his situation at work is that he says they are funny about him leaving early. however when I have asked him if he asked to take time off for an ultrasound, he said no and he works 12+ hour days because of overtime which is voluntary so he could leave as soon as he’s done his 8 hours for the day

c) I am not saying he is not having suicidal thoughts, however he has used this against me before because my step-brother committed suicide 2 years ago and he knows it’s a sensitive button to push with me. He has also threatened me with running away, harming himself, etc. Last week, he posted an instagram story of my step-brothers funeral song and yes he knows what song it is and what it means to me and how I would react (I can’t listen to this song without falling apart). He said later he was aware of how I was going to react when he posted it.

d) I have never said he can’t see his own child. I have had complete transparency with him this entire pregnancy. He has been invited to come to every appointment, to cut the umbilical cord, to be in the room when I give birth, etc. I have never closed a single door on him. He was the one who said the baby would be living with me full time, and he has only talked about looking after the baby while I’m at the gym or studying, aka. a babysitter not a dad.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading and have a great day ☺️ x