My heart and head have been tugging at eachother lately. My SO and i lost our first baby at only 6 weeks along and it was so painful for both of us he had never been with a girl who has miscarriages... Yes i have two beautiful children but what he didnt get to see was the struggle to keep them safe... I have had 3 miscarriages and it weighs on me... We have recently been trying but time and time again its a miss but now im about to start a new career and getting it adjusted and i think we actually did it at the right time this time i just have a gut feeling we did... But my family more my step momma ( who i am extremely close to) is my hero she is the one i listen to 99.9 % of the time and she mentioned something about waiting like 10 years before doing it again or at least wait till my son (just turned 3) is out of diapers i dont want to disappoint her my anxiety is killing me over it ugh