Why do I feel this way

So these pictures are me. I feel this way and saw a few pictures on it and I want to post them all on my ig story but my gf will see and she knows she’s the one making me feel this way and I don’t want her to get mad at me so I’ll post them here anonymously just to get the feeling off my chest sorry for wasting your time btw

Just think when it says bf just change to gf and it’s me. Sorry for the dumb spam I just need it off my chest so I can try to think less and actually fall asleep so I can get ready in the morning