Today Is "National Rainbow Baby Day" and the day I found out my HCG was 0 😞

Sometimes you just need to seek support and vent 😪 I know I am not alone. There are many women who are trying to conceive their rainbow baby and I sympathize for all of you ❤ Today the doctor called to inform me my HCG was a 0 after I have had 5 positive pregnancy tests. Since Sunday August 18th I have tested negative on some tests and positive on others and my lines on the positive tests were very visible. I tested with pink dye initially and then blue. So many times I have had evaps and indents but these were REAL lines and visible not only to me, but friends and family. Last August on the 23rd we lost our twins to conjoinment. For 2 months I did not know I was carrying twins. On August 23 I discovered I was not only miscarrying 1 but 2 little angels. They were both girls ❤ When these lines appeared I began to become excited because since our loss we have not started trying again. We had sex 1 times 5 days before ovulation and used condoms on ovulstion day and the day prior so this was a surprise. I was so excited. I bought a onsie last month that I could write on and do a craft project with once we discovered I was pregnant with our rainbow baby but sadly this day never came. This time of year is hard on us and this has made it harder. God bless all of you mommas who have lost a little one. Your angel babes are in heaven and I wish you all of the baby dust there is! Good luck on your journey and lots of prayers 🙏