Finally got my period

My period was 10 days late, 3 negative pregnancy tests, and me wondering what was going on. Although all the tests came back negative and the chance was slight, in the back of my mind I think there was apart of me that was excited and felt less alone. I know I’m young, and with my health conditions, it’s not a good time, but I wish I could explain the emotional shatter right now that I feel alone. Because despite everything, I did have an “evaporation” line on a test, that if you looked at it you could see a faint line. I’ve been told I may not be able to have kids due to my chronic illnesses, and just thinking hey, I might have a chance, I might do this, and about all the mights, I’m sooo crushed now. My boyfriend is beyond thrilled I bet, taking it he already had abortion videos in his recents and cracks jokes about my hormones. I don’t think any of it is funny, and I’m irritated at him, and I feel like I had to go through this whole scare alone, and I just feel miserable, and empty, and so emotionally fragile right now.

Sorry for the rant I just HAD to get it out.