Wishing I was someone different.

Anyone else just wish they were someone else? Sometimes I just really dont understand my life. I'm a normal 27 year old but i guess I just wear my heart on my sleeve. I would give the shirt off my back for anyone and always try to think the best of people and yet, I'm always being stood up in return, treated with disrespect, no one bothers to check on me. I feel completely invisible the majority of the time. Then I think, "well someone always has to be the first to text to reach out" but then when I always am that person it looks like I'm too eager I guess. Sometimes I wonder why I'm even here. No one would ever notice if I was gone. I can't see why anyone would even want to be at my funeral God forbid something ever happened to me. I dont know... I just needed to vent.