ttc again

Kylie • Engaged 👫 Mummy to oscar 3, dillan forever 20 days old 👼💙 Step mummy to jordan 8 and Due july 2020 😍👶

Here's alittle bit about my pregnancy history. I have been pregnant for 5 times now and have one living 2year old child out of all of them. I have had 3 miscarriages and sadly in October last year my 20 day old baby had to have his life support turned off after catching a stomach infection called NEC and sepsis. Prior to this he was born at 33 weeks due to pregnancy complications and when born he was diagnosed with a syndrome called smith Lemli opitz which would of eventually took his little life too. Although I am happy to be trying again I am so scared as we have a 1 in 4 chance a new baby could also have the same syndrome which would have the same outcome as my little boys. So as you could imagine normally trying to have a baby would be some what an exciting time but I can't help but have this horrible gut feeling that it's going to happen all over again. Long shot but has anyone had anything the same with genetic testing with positive stories.

Thank you to anyone who has read this xx