Just a lil rant.

I decided to not try so hard and stress over not being able to get pregnant. As AF approaches (due tomorrow) and I feel my usual symptoms. I feel my heartache. I haven’t been trying long and you maybe thinking I am being over dramatic. And If infertility wasn’t something that’s been in my mind since I was 17 ( now 21) then I would agree with you. At the young I wasn’t too worried about but it was always in the back of my mind, now older and ready to settle down, it hurts. I’m trying not to let it get to me. But my past is coming to bite me and it’s leading down a depressive path. I feel like less than a woman. And kno my partner has been great and very supportive but I can’t help but to think otherwise and what if.

If I can have any words of wisdom or advice, that’ll be appreciative. Thanks for listening, I just needed to let this out before another disappointment.