Pessimism at its finest

Ladies, I’ve discovered my “defense mechanism” for myself is being pessimistic. It’s protecting myself from possible disappointment. That said, now I really feel like I can’t NOT feel so scared/pessimistic. My 5 day 3AA transfer happened Saturday... and I have 1 3AB frozen left (out of the 7 retrieved).

I can not afford to do another round of IVF - and I truly hate (haaaate!) how it takes away from being able to be fully present with everything else going on due to being emotionally tired/and physically from the progesterone. I feel like I’m too hyper focused on this working that I’m not enjoying life to the fullest with everything I have NOW (including my amazing 3 year old daughter/and my husband). It literally takes over.

I only hear negative story’s of fresh transfers not working/and failed IVF cycles and it’s all scaring me. My infertility is based on AMH 0.59 otherwise all numbers are solid.

How do you all deal/find ways to fixate on other life things during this process??