The pain i feel when i think . trying to fight myself. Trying to reach for help. But no one to caught me. The pain i feel. The pain i feel for any one to hear me say it. The pain i feel when i know someone wants to talk to me. But it feels like a cigarette being put out on my skin. The feeling of letting air go in and out. Feels like i shouldnt breath any more. They feeling i have i cant control. I want help but how? I know what to do but cant. Why lord? I ask him . Dont i have enough pain?