I have two beautiful kids about to b 9&11 and have 3 great step kids 13,5&4 . I have a wonderful fiancé who is the absolute best man I could ever dreamed do have. My ex is a great dad to my children but i went thru hell and back for 8 years with him . Don’t get me wrong i was happy when I had both of my daughters . A bit more with my first because I was 19 and I thought I was in love and we were having our first child, she was a preemie born at 26 week 1 pound 14 ounces. Stayed in the nicu for 3 months and came home at 4 pounds . My youngest was a healthy baby but I have an incompetent cervix so I was high risk of having her early as well got my cervix stitched and had her On time . Fast forward to 2015 after trying me and their dad split up i got on my boss shit stayed single focused on my kids and my job and did what i had to do healed up took me time , then eventually got into a relationship with a womanizer who played me and had a child on me . I stayed single met my fiancé stayed friends with him took my time , and it was well worth it fell in love with him we got at house our kids love each other we are so very happy. I got on the pill because I didn’t wanna have a baby with my ex I stayed on for 3 years and jus recently got off in January. Me and my fiancé started being Careless we talked about having a baby and I know he’s trying to get me pregnant because he gets excited every time I’m

Late I was 7 days late in June and 6 days late this month but It keeps coming . I feel like giving up I’ve never had a problem getting pregnant before yes i was 19 and 21 then and I’m 30 now but I’m getting, a period so that means I’m ovulating I’m so so tired and upset and idk what to do I feel like the birth control messed up my body and I’m feeling let down I see pregnant women everywhere it’s just a lot . Im just feeling like giving up . I jus needed to vent .