Dealing with the mental and physical abuse you put me through during your manic episode was so hard for me to deal with. You're in the mental hospital and every visitation day I'm there. Always early and always the last to leave. I'm here handling things on my own. Crying every night because you aren't here with me. I use your phone to sign in to your credit cards and all the other bill but I see you paid $100 to some woman. Of course I have to research because like you said it's not your money or my money, its OUR money. So who did WE pay $100s to? I couldn't find record of this person anywhere, until I looked at your phone log and saw that name. My heart dropped. I googled the number and now our lives will never be the same. You paid a escort, a transsexual escort. You beat on me physically, mentally, emotionally. You tore me apart and still visit you in the hospital, smile in your face, laugh with you, make sure they are taking care of you. Answer the phone every time you call me. But now that I know what you did, how can I look at you the same? I cant even blame this action on your manic episode because it happened before the episode. What do I do? When can I confront you? Do I ask you for an explanation during the next visitation, or do I wait for you to be discharged?....Either way, our lives will never be the same...