I don’t post on here much but I find myself in need of some support. You see I had a fight with my mom just after Mother’s Day, we haven’t spoken since. As the summer slips away I find myself dreading what comes next. The holidays. The time of year where everyone gets together and pretends that we love each other no matter what and that nothing ever happened. I just don’t know that I can do it this year...

our whole fight was about how she’s not proud of how I’m living my life. The way I see it, that shouldn’t matter. I’m proud of myself, I live with my sister in our apartment, we share rent, I have a full time job, an absolutely wonderful and supportive boyfriend, I don’t do drugs, I’m following my dreams... I shouldn’t care what she thinks. But it’s my mom. I’ve always wanted to please her even though I know I’ll never be good enough.

I know that this is my issue and I need to come to terms with she’s not proud and that’s okay. I just don’t know how. I think it will just take time but what about the holidays? Do I just pretend?