Disappointed but happy...


Started my period today..

My husband and I are not trying but not preventing. He really wants to try but I am back and forth because I love my breastfeeding journey, but I also want to start working on making our family bigger. I am so terrified I will dry up and I want to breastfed for a year.

My last period was when I was 3 almost 4 months pp and according to my app I am technically 29 days late, and my period started today.

We had sex at least twice a week, and for the last 3 weeks or so I have been so crampy on and off and hormonal. I thought for sure I was pregnant but each test was negative and finally my period came.

I have such mixed feelings wishing I was pregnant, but excited I can promise my little peanut her milkie will not dry up for a bit longer. Ha.

Sucks having such mixed emotions.. Anyone else in the same boat or have words of encouragement?