C-section blues

It’s been almost 5 months, and I still can’t forgive myself that I had to have a C-section (due to fetal distress and his pulse dropping every time I pushed).

How come my sister, cousins, mom, aunts, grandmas, friends didn’t have a C-section, but I did?

If I gave birth at a different hospital, would they let me keep pushing?

I just read that maybe it was the drug for my migraines I took occasionally during pregnancy that was the culprit? (It contained acetaminophen and CODEINE)..my Dr was okay with me taking that drug. Ehhh I just feel like less of a woman.